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commodorified ([personal profile] commodorified) wrote2017-01-27 07:24 am

Everybody's got a hungry heart

Our beloved calico, Sovay, is dead. Details on [personal profile] fairestcat's journal, here and several entries before and after.

I miss her desperately and can't seem to stop crying. Meanwhile the world we knew is ending, brutally and finally, and practically everyone is posting ... cat pictures ... as distraction from the outrage and horror. (Please don't stop doing this. Please don't link me to other distractions. Experience suggests that when I'm ready to stop feeling terrible I'll stop on my own. I don't especially want to stop crying for her just yet.)

I want to write about her and I don't know if I ever will. It's just too hard, and I couldn't stand to have done it badly.

So I'll write about one of the moments of comfort, instead. I woke up at 4 today, because the bed was too empty and still. She liked to sleep on me, you see, and whenever I woke up and rolled over she'd take a tour over to the food dish, eat a few kibbles, and then come back to see what part of me was available for lying on now. I woke up cold, and sad, and hungry, and Cat came in to sit with me, and after a bit we made tea and porridge.


2/3 C Red River cereal (or other multigrain hot cereal mix)
2/3 C steel-cut oats
1/3 C quinoa
1/3 C dried cherries, preferably unsweetened
3C water

And bring to a boil, stirring slowly.
When it boils, reduce the heat to the minimum, cover the pot, and let it simmer for 15-20 minutes
Then add

1/2 C milk
2T honey
1 t cinnamon

Stir through and give the milk a minute to get hot,

And serve with hot, strong orange pekoe tea.

Consoles two, briefly but very well.
princessofgeeks: (Default)

[personal profile] princessofgeeks 2017-01-27 01:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry.

[personal profile] indywind 2017-01-27 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved cat.
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[personal profile] coughingbear 2017-01-27 01:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry for your loss.
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[personal profile] white_hart 2017-01-27 01:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry.
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[personal profile] mtl 2017-01-27 02:01 pm (UTC)(link)
SOOOO many hugs.
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[personal profile] mdlbear 2017-01-27 02:52 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry.
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[personal profile] alatefeline 2017-01-27 02:55 pm (UTC)(link)
*offers hugs*

I am so sorry.
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[personal profile] tiamatschild 2017-01-27 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry.
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[personal profile] cathexys 2017-01-27 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I already told Cat, but I'm so so sorry! The last couple days sounded heartwrenching even just following online.

That porridge sounds yummy and comforting. Thanks!
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[personal profile] sage 2017-01-27 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry for your loss. She was a beautiful kitty.
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[personal profile] syderia 2017-01-27 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry for your loss.
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[personal profile] mme_hardy 2017-01-27 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry. Cats matter.
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[personal profile] sillymouse 2017-01-27 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so very sorry for your loss.
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[personal profile] thatyourefuse 2017-01-27 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry. It's clear even from what I've seen that she was a wonderful cat and will be missed.
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[personal profile] pameladean 2017-01-27 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry. That empty, cold bed feeling is just the worst.

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[personal profile] rymenhild 2017-01-27 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Deleted previous post because I very much misread the message. I am so sorry for your loss.
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[personal profile] mycrazyhair 2017-01-27 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey, there. I've been thinking about you guys. So sudden. Such suck. Fuck.

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[personal profile] nolivingman 2017-01-27 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry. Take care of yourselves.
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[personal profile] thnidu 2017-01-27 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I am SO sorry to hear this. May her memory ever be a blessing to you.
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[personal profile] staranise 2017-01-27 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Love you.
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[personal profile] londonkds 2017-01-27 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm very sorry to hear this.
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[personal profile] stultiloquentia 2017-01-28 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
If you ever write your tribute, I will read it gladly, but in the meantime, posting a porridge recipe seems strangely beautiful and fitting to me.
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[personal profile] graydon 2017-01-28 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
I am sorry for your loss.
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[personal profile] desertvixen 2017-01-28 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
((( )))

I'm so sorry for you - but that's a lovely little memory for you.

((( )))
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[personal profile] st_aurafina 2017-01-29 08:02 am (UTC)(link)
I already said over on Cat's posts, but I'm so sorry about Sovay.

Delicious warm porridge sounds like a good temporary stop-gap for that sad feeling, I hope it was really tasty.
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[personal profile] 17catherines 2017-01-29 11:41 am (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry for your loss. It hurts so much when they go.
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[personal profile] filkferengi 2017-01-31 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry for your loss.
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[personal profile] fyrdrakken 2017-02-07 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
So very sorry to hear that you lost a beloved companion. (We lost a pair of ours last summer. We still have their mother and remaining litterbrother.)